Love Letter

My B,

I am so very, very sorry I hurt you. What I said was hurtful. I never meant to hurt you. I made a mistake. Sorry blame it on me. You have every right to be hurt and upset with me, I would be if I were your place. We’ve been friends for so long, I can’t imagine going through life without you to share its ups and downs.

I know you probably don’t trust me right now, but I will work very hard to regain that trust. I miss spending time with you and all the conversations we had. I am sincerely sorry and I will never speak to you like that again. I want to do whatever it takes to prove to you just how sorry I am. Will find it in your heart to please forgive me?

Loving you forever,

Your Syg

Feeling Hurt

Hurt with sadness

Hurt with pain
Hurt with hate

Hurt with the feeling its all my flaut

Hurt so bad

Crying my heart out

All i do is hurt

Two things scare me

The first is getting hurt

But that's not nearly as scary as the second

Which is losing

 

The difference between friendship and love is how much you can hurt each other

I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt

you every once in awhile and you must forgive them for that

Happy 6th Month Anniversary My B

Today is our "official" 6th month anniversary. Who counts such things? Evidently I do now. I was just wondering if he cares about this or if its just kind of a girl thing to get all excited for. Six months is nothing in the grand scheme of things but "things" have been tough then six months is a big deal. Still, it's been a wonderful six months.

Love You more today than yesterday but not as much as tomorrow. :D It's been an amazing 6 months that flew by so quickly yet feels just as exciting and thrilling as the very first day. You mean everything to me and I'm the luckiest girl around to have you.

You are an amazing guy and I'm so thankful to have you in my life. You completely start my day when I get to talk to you. I don't remember the last time I felt so hopeful, so right about my life and the future and it's all because of you. Thank you b. I love you, and I can't wait to see you again (if possible). InsyaAllah.

Miss Him

You may not be his first, his last, or his only

He loved before he may love again

But if he loves you now, what else matters?

He’s not perfect - you aren’t either

And the two of you may never be perfect together

But if he can make you laugh, cause you to think twice

And admit to being human and making mistakes

Hold onto him and give him the most you can

He may not be thinking about you every second of the day

But he will give you a part of him that he knows you can break - his heart

So don’t hurt him, don’t change him, don’t analyze

And don’t expect more than he can give

Smile when he makes you happy, let him know smile when he makes you mad

And miss him when he’s not there

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Everyday i miss him so much that my heart wants to pop out

I felt like a piece of my puzzle is missing

I love him so much, and I miss him so-so-so much

"Happy 6th Month Anniversary, B"

Happy Eid-ul Fitr

The time have come again for all our muslim friends to travel back to their hometowns to celebrate and be with their families n loved ones during this Hari Raya. Here, i wish u all a "SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN" to my family members and all my friends. In the spirit of the season, offer my sincere apologies to all for any wrong that i've done or i've said. I hope that you would see me as a mere mortal with a lot of weaknesses. Please drive carefully when on the road.

♥ ♥ ♥

Before Hari Raya

Arrrggghhh...!! Have to wait until 4 pm. I thought firm would give us half day leave today but i was wronged. There are only 4 persons (Kak Eija, Kak Ema and Azie, all from Litigation Dept) in the company that doesn’t apply for any leave, that would include myself (on behalf of Conveyancing Dept)  of course.

What I really like when it’s the holiday season especially Raya is the absence of other people. It is less crowded, it’s not busy anymore and most of all, I have a lot of spaces. Too much I guess. Check out the Jalan Duta stretch which is normally jam-packed with cars during my morning drive to work and my office place.

No one is in my department?

A lot of my colleagues have already left town 2-3 days before today. Syiok ah?! If you are wondering why I’m still in town, I celebrate Hari Raya in Kuala Lumpur every year. My family, my grandma and my mama’s family and relatives are all living in Kuala Lumpur. KL is rock! Yehh.. Yehh..! Simply saying, you can say that I am a native KL people.  YES, I AM! I'm proud to be one of them. Anyway, I’m going back to work as usual on next Monday till Tuesday before take another 2 days AL on Wednesday and Friday. I hope next year would be different.

This year, I haven’t sent any Hari Raya cards to my friends except for a few SMSes and E-cards. Well, I guess I was too busy with my work and studies and have no enough time as well to buy and send it or is it just an excuses? My bad la. Oh well, here’s a card to all my muslim friends, followers and whoever reading this post.

I Had A Shock When I Started Tracking My Expenses!!

Recently I was introduced to this expenses tracking method. I have uploaded a file for keeping track of expenses. When I started off, it was shocking to see my spending pattern. Luckily I realised that before it was too late. Tracking your expenses is not difficult to do and anyone can easily do this.

I spend about ten minutes a day. Naturally your experience might vary, so I suggest you give it a try. It will probably turn out to be easier than you expected.

It is just about monitoring your daily expenses in order to see how is your spending pattern like, probably after a month, few months or even a year. By doing this, you will have a better understanding on your spending habit. You can also analyse on what are unnecessary spending that you can cut off.

Loving You So Much!

The moment I think about you
I go to another world
A world where you love me too
And where I can never be hurt

The truth is I don’t know what to say
My mind goes completely blank
I have never in my life lost my way
But my heart with your love simply sank


If letting  you go was a choice
Then I definitely would
But I can't control the strong voice
That's telling me I never should

I have no clue
On how I should let you go
What is it that you do?
That's making me love you so…

Maybe loving you isn’t a mistake
Maybe I can close my eyes and smile
Maybe in your presence my heart wouldn’t break
Maybe I can just dream for a while…

I sometimes wonder if you feel the same
I wonder if you think of me
I sometimes wonder if you silently call my name
I wonder if you'll ever see…

In the beginning I thought it was fake
I didn't think I'd go this far
I thought it was just a mistake
Now I can't stop wondering where you are

The question is do you care?
Do you even know?
Will you always be there?
Will you ever let me go?

If for any reason I cried

Would you take all the pain away?

If for any reason you lied

Would I still want you to stay?

My love for you is way too strong

For me to simply forget

Some people might think it's wrong

But your love is the one thing I shan't regret

Merdeka Day 2010

Happy 53rd Merdeka to all Malaysian. It has been 53 years since we have our own independent day stretching back to 31 August 1957. I’m quite happy actually. There is a lot I want to say about my country but I don’t know how to say it. I didn’t went to countdown last night, not interested at all. Its too crowded and to me, it seems a little scary.

The name Malaya was then changed to Malaysia when the country was officially made a federation of 13 states including Sabah and Sarawak. Malaysia as we know it today is a thriving developing country, often considered a “role model” by its Southeast Asian neighbours for its economic and political stability, multicultural harmony and steady progress.

What does Merdeka means to me? It is about growing and sharing as you move along your own personal journey of life. And be truly thankful that as Malaysian we are still united in one accord and 1 Malaysia.

Fast Facts about Malaysia are as follows:

Capital City : Kuala Lumpur

Main Languages : Malay (official) known as Bahasa Malaysia, English, Tamil, Chinese, indigenous languages 

Religion : 52% Muslim, 17% Buddhist, 12% Taoist, 8% Christian, 8% Hindu, 2% tribal

Currency : Malaysian Ringgit (RM)

Country Dialing Code : 60

National Flower : Hibiscus or “Bunga Raya”

Key National Symbols : The Malaysian Flag or “Jalur Gemilang” and The National Anthem “Negaraku”

May Allah continue to bless this nation and see it transform into a better country for all Malaysians regardless of race, religion and background to strive for a better Malaysia!

 ~ MERDEKA..! MERDEKA..! MERDEKA..! ~

What Do You Miss In Those Times??

• Miss playing rounders, zero-point, bola tin, marbles (golie), five stones, congkak, hopscotch, collecting erasers and battling with friends by trying to flip mine over theirs.

  .: Five Stones :.                                               .: Zero-Point:.                                             .: Bola Tin :.

                             

• Also playing catching and hide and seek
• Teacher asking you to write letters to your classmate and study for spelling test
• Miss running around with friends from one house to another and cycling too 
• Oh yes, miss having the swings at the sandy playground. Can build mini castles too. These days so many are plastics and lots fewer swings around
• The cartoons..! The cartoons..!
• Do remember the 20 cents home-made ice-cream, sometimes they got asam-boi, lychee and milo flavours. It's like packed in a clear plastic and then they'll tie it, BCG and 60 cents per bus ride
• After a hard days of playing at the playground and getting all tired and sweaty, we'd rock up to the "mak cik"s house and get "ice-cream" for 20 cents each
• Friends would hang out and and have fun, but now everyone seems so busy with their own life me included, tied down with work and really missing those carefree days
• Miss my pri and sec school classmates, really hope all of them are doing well
• Life was definitely much simpler and more wholesome. Perhaps it's also because we were looking at it thru a child's eyes
• But I would much rather be a kid in the 80's again then to be a kid now. So much stress at school
• I remember my late baba used to hold his hand up high and wave here and there just to find reception to call
• When I was in sec school, would go down Central Market @ Pasar Seni and take photos. The mood then was really so much more different. Hanging out at Yaohan with my sec school classmates, only worry would be the exams and nothing else
• Do you all remember the 'fun fair' we had last time? To go in, you need to pay a ticket fee then there are so many stalls and rides inside. Nowadays pasar malam is nothing compared to those days.
• But it is a different story now. Sadly to say that life here now seems lifeless and stressful, everyone seems so stressed and tired. Good looking on the outside but really empty inside.

~ There's too many to list actually. What can i say, i really do miss those times ~